9/11 and religion

This past Saturday was the anniversary of the attacks. Obviously everyone remembers where they were and what they were doing at that time. In addition to shaking my sense of security, the attacks also destroyed my idea of religion. I lived in the bubble of North Dallas. That's about five times worse than the Baylor Bubble. So honestly, I had never seen anything really evil until that day. I didn't understand that people could willingly do such an evil thing as crash a plane into a building on purpose. The thing I had even more trouble understanding was when Osama Bin Laden came on TV and said that these attacks were in the name of God. What God was this? The God I knew about from Sunday school was a nice one. When I brought this up, the response I got was that God makes everything happen for a reason. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. In my 12 year old brain, I took this to mean that God supported both good and evil. I didn't want to be friends with this kind of God. I realize now what a dumb rationalization this was but, I stood by it for years. It also didn't help that bad things just kept happening to me for years until I hit rock bottom in spring 2007. In spring 2007, I decided to give up on God because i decided he was behind all the bad things that were happening. I haven't willingly set foot in a church sense. I want to change that but aren't sure how. Now, religion is pitched to me as something that will fill the missing pieces in my life. Well, I don't feel like I'm missing much of anything right now. So, 9/11 not only shook the world but, my religious foundation as well.